Saturday, June 4, 2011

My wish ... for me

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I have always loved this song... gotta love country music! I was listening to it again today while reading a post from F*&cked to Fab and realised that I have a wish for myself. I am just not very good at putting it into words - or realising that it is ok for me to have this goal for myself and to put it first.

One of the pre-season tasks for the MB 12WBT was to make a commitment to the program, and to yourself. This was the only pre-season task that I actually skipped over, at the time it just was something that I was like "oh yeah, I know what I want"... and I passed over it.

Looking now, I realised that if I put it down on paper than I was putting it out there that my commitment meant that I had to stand by what I said I was going to do.. no backing down, no excuses, that was what I said I was going to do and that was way to scary even 3 weeks ago.

But now, even just 2 and a bit weeks in, I realise that I need to make the commitment, I need to say out loud my wish for me, so that I have it to come back to and know that that is what I am working towards.

So here we go

My commitment to myself is that I deserve to be healthy and happy and that I am committed to doing what is needed to achieve that goal. I am committed to the eating plan (which I am LOVING!) as I know that it is the way to ensure that I succeed. I am committed to making exercise a part of my daily life. This might not mean sticking perfectly to the exercise plan but doing something each and every day that brings me closer to my goal, from this I am also committed to understanding that I am not perfect and nor am I yet in a place that this is going to come easily, but I am committed to trying.

The lessons and the achievement come purely from the doing, not the doing it perfectly.

I am also committed to learning to appreciate myself and recognise that my effort is worth praise. Just because I am not going to be the best, the fastest the fittest or the thinest, does not mean that I am not doing a GREAT JOB towards my goal.

So that is my wish for me, but unlike wishing on a star, or blowing out a candle, my wish is going to come true on step at a time, one mouthful at a time, one day at a time - until I am living my wish.